FUCK MAN..i simply didnt start my dae of well lor..miss gan is bek after going away..got bek pur logbooks..n yeah fuck shit sia..i got downgraded..
not a bit..but a whole looooooottt more..i was like..sial ah..my heart drooped like mad..
i was in the mood to start my shift..ten tis had to happen..simply not my cup of tea at all..hell no!!!='(
n i got 9 TWOS..6 ONES..1 FOUR..AND 1 THRE..how pathetic is tat?ok i agree on some..i did wrong oso..
but hello!!!!1?
tat is sooo the ARGHHH!!!
IM SO DISCOURAGED..my heart for nursing changed so much after the posting at that ward..tat wretched ward..argh!!!my dear frnds who are same as me in the same ward..u shudbe hapie with ure grades..im hapiie for u guys..
im not happie with mind at al..
but i cant fit bek cause i dun wanna be defient n not accept it..later ill be marked down again n again..till i failll!!!
argh!!!!
now i shall write wat was put insede my book..wich i accepted with a heavy heart..=(im soory teacher..but i just got to sae this..im tankful for ure giudance..i apreciate ure teaching..ure the best!!!!
but i jst got to pour tis out k?
here goes nothing..haiz..='(
knowledge- rather weak theoretical at her level,seems to "forget" her theories(i agree but i learn frm the mistakes)
- requires alot of prmpting during questioning.has to put in lots of efforts to do pre-reading.(im not the only one..im soory but i know wat im doing its just tat long explanation i cant..in my own werds i cud try)
skills
- needs monitoring on aseptic technique
- tends to contaminate sterile filed,unsure with steps and requires prompting with steps ->counseled(i know i did wrng..i learned but wat abot wen i improved..u nvr mentioned any of it..)
- needs lots of practice in oreder tp perform the skills rit( i agree on tat one..)
- lacks communication skills whne performing skills for patients..(wat was tat suppose to mean..u tink i'll jst poke a neddle into sumone witot informing them..i tok to my patients okie?)
- needs to be more proactive in getting her skills assessed.(ok i was slower ten the rest..ive bucked up)
attitude
- chatty.street smart( i know i can talk street smart?oh god..)
- apparently behaves well only during the presence of lecturers/nurse clinician/manager(theres a saying tat goes..u got to dress to impress man..i behave like i always do..be it infront of them of my parents..)
- rather passive and laid back in learning needs..(u tink i dun chge n only act as though i was interested..if i was tt defient..i wudnt have gone n asked my seniors abot theories..)
- display strong body language.overconfident n aloof..(tis part broke my heart..wich part of overconfident was i?the o or the t?aloof?u mena im unfriendly?n think tat im more superior than others?god man..i love my frnds..i teart them like normal..i dun call them stupid or wat..god man..were equal people..cant u see tat?im so close to them y wud u think i dun cooperate of unfriendly to them be it my peers or my seniors???)
- tend to give inappropriate reasons /excuses for action when checked.counseled by sister RUBA!( IF TIS IS ABOT THE OTHER INCIDENT..I HAD EVIDENCE ..STRONG ONES!!IVE BEEN BLACK MARKED BY HER I KNOW IT!!!SAVE MY BREATH IN THE FRST PALCE..I WUDNT HAVE COME TO U TO TELL MY SIDE OF STORY..DUN HAVE TO LISTN TO MY SIDE OF STORY..I WASTED MY TEARS..DEFENDING MY SELF)
- Constant reminder on her uniform code;unkempt hair(fringe n ponytaill.)*i never keep my fringe hanging..never u can always see my forehead..n my pnoytail?its short..not in my wae wen doing my job..*short chain*the first dae wen i got to noe u were my lecturer in chrge.happned sooo long ago*big/colored ear studs..*as far as i knew i wore the blek small ones for centuries..i only wore them i nvr had other BIG ONES...*
- wiling to change wen corrected but forgettable..*i nvr wore ear studs animore..no fringe at all..no short chain..i scrubbed my hand like mad to get rid of tat color..i wan to have good grades*
tats the end of evirting ..i will accept it willingly,,i have to too..i just wanna graduate..i dun wanna fit..im justa student..wat rit have i to fit with my superiors???!!
hoepfully ill get better grade fr tis posting....i wished..i pray hard like hell!!!=)
nurul=)