Saturday, February 24, 2007; somtimes..
sometimes i just wonder wats the meaning behind the real I LOVE U..ive been saying it to baby..i mean it ..or dun i?i do love him..hes brot joy n laughters to my life..but sumtimes wen we quarell the werd i love u seem to disappear..=(y?i dun nnoe..the love is conroledd n ivaded by hatred..gosh!! im so selfish n iritating..im just soo foolish..i wud want his attention at the wrng time n tat will make him pissed of..n tat'll piss me off too..so much so we;ll quarell like normal ..arguing n shouting at each other has been our daily routine i guess for the 1 yr n 4 mths with him..somtimes he wishes tat i wud just be as loving as an angel..i do wish too sumtimes i dun get to worked put or jeles over stupid stuffs..i guess im controlling his life..alot..soory abby..mind was controlled too much before hand,...i noe i may seem selfish cause im making him pay for wat ive went through..im just super cautious now..i dunnoe y..im scared of it too..its getting onto baby's nerves..his being super patience with me..thanks alot..i do love u..tanks for loving me..i realy need to search high n low wats true love n unconditionally love is..turely..i feel like ive not loved him enuf..i terribly sorry..shine on me god..shine n shine shine on me..i pray for ure enlightentment...nurul=)
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
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