Sunday, April 22, 2007; argh..
its been a week since i last toked to baby..
its killing me for sure..
dam sure..
im feel so empty..
i feel so lost..
haiz..
baby plese no matter how bz u are..
make time to call me..
u make time to meet ure frnds n catch up with them..
wen i call u ure with them n u tell me i called at the wrng time..
u noe hw tat feels?
tats so sad yang..
i have curfew at 10..
u owaes come home late nowadeas..
u didnt evn call me before 10..
here i am waiting like mad to hear ure voice..
all goes down to nothing..
its been a week since i communicate with me..
it kille me alot..
im dying inside aiez..
plese do spare some time for me..
dun only concentrate on werking..
n making money..
i noe u meant well..
i hapie for tat but plese..
u still have a gf tat is breathing..
VERY MUCH ALIVE..
heart is still beating waiitng for u to tok to her..
n ask her how was her dae..
baby,i miss my bf..bring me bek my bf..
nurul='(
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
4:47 PM
Friday, April 13, 2007; =)
its been awhile..i noe..
baby n i decided to settle down..
not as in marriage..
as in we get engaged..
i mean we do love each other..
im changing fr his sake..
n he saes im doing a good job..
tanks yeah?*winks*
baby talked to his siblings already..so now its my turn to tok to sumone..
told kak ella..
but not mama or who ever..
not evn dada..
gosh man..
i mean dada sae its too young..
wat our plan was..
we get engaged before he goes ns..but we tie it for 4 yrs like tat...
hopefully nothings goes wrng..
2 yrs to finish ns..2 yrs to werk..n get money..
well help each other out..
but argh...
dunnoe...
i wan it to happen...
but im sked of my family objecting to it..
i mean baby is my age..
werking but not a grand job..
hes stating to save up slowly..
cause he just finished skoll like me...
well...
haiz...
kuzin saes just go for it..
being engaged doesnt mean tat ure getting married..
its just a wae of telling me..
hey im his n his mind...
so tat wen we go out together makcik2 wun ckp stupid tings..
at least were bethrothed to one another..
how does tat sound?
convincing enuf to tell my mum..?
i dun tink soo..
haiz...
go to tink again n again...
FINALLY PUTIING MY DEVASTATING PAST BEHIND ME..
N TO TAT SUMONE..
its time for me to move on with life n love sumone fully..tanks for all the memories tat we had..
but i love my baby alot..
n baby..i love u..
cant wait to have..=nurul shanty estilliyana n muhd shanfiz idzhul
in our lifes..
=)
nurul=)
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
7:58 PM
Tuesday, April 03, 2007; fuck u amira!!
u told me to trust u..
i did..
ten i get tis shit?
wat the fuck baby..
y does she has to keep apprearing in our lifes?
y b?
we almost broke up bcause of her..
now tis again?
u told me u guys were just frnds?
wat more she wans from u?
fuck aiez i hate her...
stop doing tis iz..
y does she keep apearing?
she has a bf..
she still looks fr u..
she wans u stil..
i mean seriusly..
wat the fuck is her bloody prob man..
aiez..im giving u a chnce now..
dun fool wit me..
dun fool with my heart..
u gave a chnce so we wud not break up..
more
like im giving it to u now..
plese i beg u baby..
stop contcting her..
stop all ure nonsense with her..
plese..
N TO AMIRA I FU WERE TO READ TIS!!
FUCK U BITCH..U DAMM BLOODY HORE..
I HATE U TO THE CORE..
SATU MATAIR U JAGE DULU..
NAK KEJAR MATAIR ORANG..
SIAL KAU POMPAN KAU LAGIK SATU KALI TAU..
JGN KASI AKU CARIK KAU..
NAHAS TAU SIAL NYE BETINE...
MARK MY WERDS U CHEAP BITCH...
I HATE U LIKE FUCK!!
AKU SUMPAH..SUPAYE KAU TAK DPT KEBAHAGIAN KAU!!
I SWEAR MIRA I SWEAR!!!!
U SUCK BIG TIME!!!
I cry and I weep... Because of you...
4:40 PM